End of a year....onto new beginnings...

A little over a month later, I thought it was time to do an update... It amazes me the different mind set I have now compared to many years before. It's a great thing-don't get me wrong, but I'm not exactly sure why. Because I've grown up? Because I finally realized that my forehead, does not in fact say "Welcome" across it, or because I've FINALLY realized that I deserve more than what I've been allowing myself. I've always had a little piece of "fearless" in me-mostly when I hang out with the boys *blame it on the competitive, hard headed Irish side*, but I figured out, that if I dig into that part of me a little more--I can accomplish anything. Along with being fearless, finding the motivation also helps. Motivation isn't created or fuled by just myself. I have my awesome family that can drive me crazy sometimes...but when I remember that they do things in the name of love..it becomes easier to take and listen to. Not to mention my incredible friends who are there for me and love me despite my talent for hiding I seem to do every so often. Thank You my loves!

School is now over * until next semester* and my grades were a welcome beginning to Winter Break. I got a B in both of my classes. I am pretty pleased with myself and know that I worked hard this semester. It was interesting going back with this new mindset. I loved going to class. I loved getting my papers and tests back, seeing my hardwork pay off. Can't wait until next semester. Classes are set. Bring on the homework.

Onto the real topic...As of this morning, 31 December 2009. My weight was 271 so I lost 10 pounds in the past month and 2 days, 2o pounds total since October. I can't wait to see myself transform in 2010. I'm not going to make weight loss long term "goals", anyone who knows me knows that if I do and I don't meet it...well nevermind. So I figure I'll set my "monthly goal" for 10 pounds. If I hit it "great", if I don't then I'll make up for it in the next month. Weight loss plan is as follows
1. Nutrisystem Meal Plan
2. 64 Oz of water daily
3. 5 days of cardio *2 days I'll add Strength Training* w/ 2 days off
4. Cut out sodas- make sweet tea using splenda
5. Getting 6-8 hrs of sleep a night.

I've also made some "Pounds Lost Incentives" so here goes-
20 pounds lost *already lost* full set mani
40 pounds = New Outfit for girls night out
60 pounds = New *first* tattoo
80 pounds= Spa day
100 pounds=New pair of Nike Shox

When I get to 100 pounds I'll think of some rewards for the last 50. If you have any ideas....shoot them my way.


To lose the weight will bring a healthier me. At 26, my knees shouldn't hurt the way they do. My asthma is bad enough, without having it come on by just walking up a hill. I just hope its not too late to reverse it.

Thanks y'all for the support! Looking forward to what 2010 brings!!

The History....

I was born a "solid" baby, was a chunky kid...so I've been "fluffy" my whole life. Along with the weight issues have come many emotional and health problems. I decided to do this blog about the rest of my journey to FINALLY get the weight off after being inspired by some awesome people who have been on the same journey as I am now. My life hasn't been all bad. I had a good childhood, with some great friends that I am still friends with to this day. I couldn't have gotten through some of the more bad times without them, and am grateful for them more than I can express. It's sad to look back now, because I realize what a massive effect, excuse the pun...my weight has had on my life. It's kept me back from a lot of things I should've experienced. And fueled the low self-esteem issues that got me into abusive relationships, toxic friendships, and started the fear of being around my own peers.
Some of the weight is because of genes..and I know that. Some of it is because I am and will probably always be an emotional eater. I am also someone who LOVES good food. I love the history, the process of making it, the smells and tasting something that can take you to heaven and back. :) But between bad habits, not so good circumstances and not exercising as much as I should be, my weight has climbed and climbed, with a few losses in between..for years now.
I'm hoping that with this blog...I, along with my great family and friends will be able to keep me accountable....you see, for the past 6 weeks..I haven't been eating much at all. Surprising huh. I eat maybe one meal a day if that, I'm just not hungry or interested. I've lost about 20 pounds *mini YEAH* but it's been done the wrong way! I'm not sure when this started exactly, and I don't know if it's because of the really bad breakup combined with death of some close *USMC and civilian* friends over the past 5 months finally catching up...I just don't know. It's time that I take advantage of the 2nd chance given to me when I heard the "C" diagnosis a lil over 2 years ago. I also want to get to know "me" without the weight and live the life I deserve to live.
My current weight is 281. My goal is 150. *Have to be honest with myself and everyone for this to work*
I don't have a time limit or a deadline. It's gonna come off the healthy way, with hard work and eating right. It's not always gonna be easy, but in the end I want to make me proud of what I've accomplished. Come along with me on my journey..I welcome your words of advice and encouragment, and maybe will be able to encourage someone else along the way.