Hey y'all! Here It's the 2nd day of February, and I can't believe that the first month of 2011 is already over! Wow!
Like most of you know, I'm still on my "Butterfly Journey". I am so motivated and blessed! This isn't always my attitude, but life is good! :)
I started out January with a new outlook on life. I was quite frustrated because my health issues were getting in the way of my weight loss. It was frustrating as all get out. I would get very discouraged because I think for the first time I was doing everything right. I was hitting the gym, tracking what I ate on Weightwatchers.com and I still wasn't losing. So I went to the doc, got put on some new meds, did some things different and the weight started to come off. I could breathe a little better, then.
My faith has a lot to do with my journey. It's NOT just a weight thing. It's a mental, spiritual along with a physical journey. It's a journey that needs to take me thorough the rest of my life. God is an awesome God, and I need to honor him with my mind, heart and body. He's only given me one, after all. :0)
Life is given so that we can live, love, laugh, worship, dance, cry...everything that makes up this awesome, sometimes crazy, almost always beautiful life. Being the weight I was a year and a half ago, there's no way I could say I was living. I was failing out of school, getting out of bed to only go to work and school, had an eating disorder with no faith of recovery, and was in a relationship that I shouldn't have been in. My non-relationship with God along with my weight and depression was the reason I wasn't living. As I face 2011...I'm in a much better place! I'm closer to God than I've ever been in my life. I treasure the relationships close to me and I make an effort to actually LIVE life. I'm a long way from where I need to be and crave to be, but I'm getting there, step by step.
I'm blessed, more than I have any right to be. I have the most beautiful family ever, the most amazing, loving friends, a couple great jobs, the chance to work out a gym and a great place to take a Zumba class a couple times a week.
This year is MY YEAR! I can't wait to hit my goal weight this year. I believe in myself and I believe that with God's never failing love and belief in me...I can be healthy and finally LOVE ME. I'm looking forward to spending time with my best friends, including some that I've reconnected with, and some new ones! One of my bestie's weddings and meeting her new addition to her family later this year, a trip to Universal Studio's in June with a guy I've fallen in love with. Also showing my parents and those around me that I'm not the weak, dependent, person they think I am. I have the ability to stand up on my own two feet and I take responsibility for the things I need to. I'm showing myself all the time that I can do things I never thought I'd be able to do.
WEIGHT UPDATE: OK here goes....I started off January 2011 at 249 pounds. I finished it at 239 pounds. I lost 10 pounds!!! TOTAL LOSS: 70 pounds!! Those 10 pounds came off with sweat, tears, laughs and a couple *grr's* along the way. lol
My goal for February is to see the number 238 on the scale..and surpass it by 10 pounds * 238 is my lowest weight as an adult* , to go to 2-3 Zumba classes a week, do 45 minutes of cardio a total of 4 days a week. I hope to strength train 2 days a week. I'm still on weight watchers so that covers my food part....which is still "under construction".
I'm so blessed in this life. I'm more blessed than I have a right to be. My God knows the desires of my heart, and with a little patience and prayer....I'm praying all will work out. :)
Thank You all for your love, support, encouraging words and big hugs...I appreciate it all!!
Love each other and yourselves!! You are worth soooo much! :)
See you at the end of February!!!
