Hey y'all....
Been a long time since my last blog update. As you can tell from the title, I'm guessing you know it hasn't been a successful summer. I'm very disappointed in myself, although I understand that this stuff happens pretty frequently and it's not the end of the world. I understand that, really I do. It's hard, because having the mindset that I had, I set goals that I wanted to meet by now, and I've taken quite a few steps back from that goal....maybe a lot of steps back....heck, just press the rewind back a few scenes.
Around the time I wrote the last blog, was the time I really started to lose my focus. I had gotten busy with school, work, and "relationships" that I lost the focus on taking care of me. My priorities had gotten a bit screwed up. And I started actually LISTENING TO MY EXCUSES! Uggh!
I did finish off last semester with a 4.0! So that's something to be very proud of, since I'm not the "ideal" student. But I appreciate my education a lot more than I did before, and I'm excited to keep on, keeping on to get my degree in the next coming semesters.... and FINALLY start teaching.
So, needless to say, I got so busy taking care of school, work (as I should be doing), and let the focus slip off of myself and my health goals and onto other things I "thought" were more important. What in the world was I thinking?!?!?! My health and ME are so much more important than I give it time for. As I said in the beginning of my journey, God has blessed me with one body, one life and I need to live it to please HIM and give him the glory for ALL that HE has blessed me with.
To be honest, the past 3 1/2 months have been a test and trial. I found myself sliding back into old routines, old habits, old thoughts. I thought I had conquered those things a year or so ago. Positive side to that statement is that I haven't gone back to drinking regular sodas, (I discovered Coke Zero!!) or buy alcohol at all. I'm proud of myself for that, since those were two unhealthy addictions that I worked hard to overcome. BUT.....
I had gotten down to 215. Throughout these last months, I've put 25 pounds back on. I'm very sad and discouraged, but know it's not the end of the world and that it's time to get back to business. I do understand the total lost is still something to be proud of. I've lost 69 pounds and it's made such a big difference. Makes me excited to lose the rest!
I've found out over the past months of this journey, I still have a long road ahead of me, but I'll navigate through it. Keeping positive is key. Do I get over the disappointment in myself and letting others down? Or do I keep that disappointment, to keep myself in check? I'm not sure if it'll help or hold me down.
Now that September 2011 is upon us...I've set some goals for myself to help start my journey off on the right direction.
Goals:
1. Stay Positive!
2. Get to the gym on a regular basis doing cardio and strength training
3. Eat at home! Eat out only if necessary!
4. TRACK, TRACK, TRACK!! (Weight Watcher Points)
5. Manage time wisely to manage stress levels!!
*** In doing these things I want to lose at least 10 pounds this month. ***
I know it's do-able and necessary! Life is short and there are so many things I want to do.
Thank You so much for your encouragement and positive words throughout my journey. I hope to make up for the disappointment in the coming months and show there are action behind my words.
HUGE THANK YOU to my parents. Without them and their support, I'm not sure where I'd be. I've been blessed beyond measure and can never thank them enough.
There are other choice family members that have also given me so much encouragement and love...it just makes me smile!! I appreciate y'all more than you'll EVER know!!
My cup runneth over!!
Love you all!!
